faith and doubt
as much as i love the season of lent, i’m always glad when holy week rolls around. primarily because my favorite holiday is easter.
the main reason i love easter is because Jesus is raised from the dead. and i’m always excited to celebrate the resurrection, whether or not i was there to witness it. i love how God triumphs over death, how death does not get the last word.
today i preached on the “doubting thomas” text from john 20. my goal was to revive an appreciation for doubt. in my world, doubt is not evil. doubt is not the opposite of faith, but is integral to building up and strengthening my belief.
i think it is fascinating that we follow up the pinnacle of the church year (aka easter) with doubt in the resurrection. of course, that doubt is followed by the ultimate confession of faith: “my Lord and my God!”
this past week, i read a blog that talked about faith. faith and belief are words that often get tossed around in our daily lives as we have faith despite having no proof, but faith is much more than that. rollins writes that faith is a “reality that enables us to see.” i love his definition. faith is something that gets lived out, not described in abstract terms. faith doesn’t just shape our reality; faith is a reality.
but faith is also connected to doubt. doubt is not just a denial because of lack of proof or evidence. doubt is not the opposite of faith, but is important because it pushes us to questions. and those questions are important as they push us to test our faith, to make sure that our reality is not skewed.
for me, doubt is not the end of faith but the beginning. it is when i doubt that i start asking different questions, which then either reaffirm or shake up the faith i live out of. doubt always ends up with me having a stronger faith because doubt leads to a desire to seek the truth, whatever that looks like or wherever it is found or however much it may hurt to learn.